Not feeling good today, be it physically or mentally.

Ordered a plate of chicky rice& ate only a few mouthful. R asked if I felt lonely when I only meet MC like during weekends only. I told her I don’t feel lonely bcos I’m with J&K almost everyday. But, I knew somewhere in my heart, I felt lonely. Is it that MC don’t need me to keep him accompany? He told me he wanted to work part time on top of his current job, I got taken aback by his words. He said he gotta have more savings, that’s not a bad thing for him to think this way but selfish me, wanting him to spend more time with me. Am I just a ‘side-dish’ to him or what? If he knows that’s how I think, he will definitely kill me with his silence. I’m jealous of those couples being able to meet like alternative days or so. Weekend seemed to be long but it’s only a sat night& sunday morning. He’s working halfday every saturday as well, aint he very hardworking? (Bum said it’s a good thing thou)

Now, I’m back to school, I feel so stressed up. I so wanted to prove myself but I realized I’m not capable of that. Today’s lab practical, Ms Jenny brought up a topic of comatose patients, ahma came right into my mind& I couldn’t concentrate during class already. Home is not the correct word, it’s just like a place for me to sleep& wake up for school. I’ve been thinking how should I approach my 2nd auntie regarding a dispute, I’m dying to know what happened. Why must everything come in a bullet of trains?

I’m sad, bye