I wanna to change to a better person but not under your influence or words. I want it to be that I change it willingly& not under pressure. I know you meant well yet you didn’t realize you hurt me with those casual lines.

I thought I won’t be feeling that way ever since I met you. This weekend, you made me felt so lousy of myself. As I said you meant it well for me, can’t you just phrase it in a nicer way? I almost cried bcos you reminded me of my ex bf who used to run me down with such stuffs. I know you’re not him cos you treat me much better than him. Still, I can’t deny the fact I’m hurt by your words, it’s way too depressing to hear that from you.

This weekend gave me a nightmare experience. I once thought you liked me even thou I’m a loud person. I admit, thats a weak point of me. I’ll change but it takes time.

(I’m not ranting about how bad my bf is)

I can see that you have the kind of temper which I’ll be afraid of. Yet you never once showed it towards me till now. Much appreciated. 2 fiery person being tgth aren’t an easy task. One gotta give in no matter what. I dare not say I’m always the one giving in but I’m proud of you cos I’m willing to give in at times, cos I think you’re worth of my efforts. In those previous r/s I had, I gave in bcos I loved them but they don’t deserved that. Now, I did that out of love& you are qualified to be treated this way.

Love is not everything but at least you you meant something to me <3