November 2011
2 posts
How amusing it is to teach people how to handle things in a nicer way when we’re the ones who don’t use it personally. For the past few weeks, I seriously thought the problem lies with me, but no. It’s OUR ego which caused us to be in this manner. Men got their ego to speak of, so am I. To me, it’s merely a text yet Rachel told me that sms will cause me in deep shit....
September 2011
3 posts
Chicken rice @ KFC
The moment I got on button’s car, the couple bombarded me with a lot of interesting short stories. Then WX joined in the fun for plotting a scheme to test KK out. Twitter& KFC. We had 3 different ways to tackle KK before reaching his place but we didn’t follow the scheme. (Bcos I’m busy laughing throughout the whole journey!)
*KK came into the car*
WX: Eh, KK. Where you...
你的愛早已經不痛，我的心缺了一個洞。你的愛我已經不懂，我的愛沒有用。
我很失敗，到底必須經過多少次的彎角才能走到終點站。
I made MC angry, guilt.
Bought him cute lil donuts& mango strudel. He didn’t even bother to eat it when I told him it’s in the fridge. So mean, I hoped to chop off his nose& kill him! K, that’s too extreme but he always said that he wanna kill me.
Then after we had BKT with QY, she mentioned about Mac’s supreme breakfast, I told MC that I wanna try it the next...
August 2011
2 posts
After 25th august, won’t have the chance to go back school until graduation day. I don’t miss the food in NYP but the people I’ve met throughout these years. Will have to go thru 3postings before we start our 3months of PRCP. I’m now afraid not being able to complete my PRCP bcos I don’t even have the confidence to be a registered nurse.
I’m supposed to...
If you think it’s very cute to use private numbers to call& disturb my old number, congrats. Making a fool out of yourself you have no one to turn to, to ask for my current number.
Begging your boyf to stop contacting me like one kind is sucha shame. I don’t reply to his texts, neither do I saved his number. So stop acting like a clown& tell tales to my brother. So you think...
July 2011
11 posts
The hardest part about walking away from someone...
runawaytrain:
“The best kind of kiss, is the kind when you have to stop because you can’t help...”
– (via eletheowl)
“The best things in life are unseen. That’s why we close our eyes when we cry,...”
– (via eletheowl)
Coming to an end of school life in 2 weeks time then clinical placement for 6 months before I start working.
In life, we have ups& downs to differentiate how good is good, how bad it can be. Had a farewell session with all my classmates yesterday, almost everyone cried upon saying the speech. The 3videos were awesomely done by syharin. It’s all the times we went through among all...
Mom: Girl, where you go yesterday?
Me: Msia lor!
Mom: How you go? Bike or car?
Me: Car la! Why lei!
Mom: I thought I saw you got on a bike?! Are you back tgth with your ex? Girl, cannot lei. You want to suffer again ah? Not mommy wanna say you, but must think. So. are you back tgth with him?
Me: Hell no, mom. Dont disturb me. Bye.
(She’s badly traumatized over my relationship with my...
I always love to text Bf when he’s sleeping. Cos I want him to feel the love I felt when I woke up looking at his SMS in the morning. These little bits of actions can slowly accumulate into a bigger picture. I love to text bcos I’m not good with words said verbally.
PS: it takes more than anything for feelings to fade. Never doubt yourself in a failed relationship. xoxo PYY
Since you said you don’t have such habit to do so, I’ll not force any further. I’ll step back and forget about my request. Then I’ll stick to my habit of my own.
June 2011
8 posts
“He’s not the kind of guy that would ignore me when he’s with friends. He’s the...”
– (via eletheowl)
I’ve no idea what you’re thinking. Trying to humiliate me with words& your vulgarities again or just purely wanna know if I’m better off without you. I can’t be bothered at all. I hope for the best for you.
Know what? I’m really contented to have this group of friends. No one knows how much Jaslyn did for me, how Kelly helped& accompany me. Lastly, how Eunicey stood by me all these while. I kept a secret from Eunice like for 3-4 days, I finally told her about it& in fact, she already knew about it, just waiting for me to verbalize to her. I didn’t expect Jaslyn to facebook-message...
I know they care, I really do. That’s what makes me feel so guilty. Friends, give me time, 2weeks. After that, I’ll face you all with a brand new me, regardless the stubborn or the trouble-free me!
That caused a great impact in me. I need to talk to someone but I know I’ll only get back negative comments.
Yes, birthday’s over. Know what? I’m real unhappy.
“I liked when my fingers were entangled in yours, and my head was on your chest,...”
– (via eletheowl)
This Friday, Ms JC’s words made my efforts these years all worthwhile! She suddenly said this:’Yihui, you really changed a lot, which is a good thing.’ but I got confused bcos we dk each other until this year. So, I asked her why she said that. Then she replied:’ a a lot lecturer who took your class before asked me about your behavior& attitude, asked me to be stern...
May 2011
7 posts
I’ll private all my post from today onwards
I’ve a story to tell, its about me& you.
I’ve been having nightmares recently. When I’m having afternoon nap yesterday. My dream started like…
I met with one of my male cousin, we were discussing about our skin conditions, then I showed him my right arm with alot of blisters& black spots.
Then I showed him my left hand with alot of black spots like clustered...
I spent this weekend nursing a very hard to please patient. Down with fever yet refused to take panadol. He used my words to slap my face.
panadol will remain in our body
system for 6years! (I regretted telling
him this fact)
I hate the panadol taste
I confirm will vomit
Panadol have no effect, if not don’t
need doctors alrdy!
Above are part of his excuses to avoid taking panadol. I...
One word frees us of all the weight& pain of life. That’s ‘Love’.
How true? This phrase got tumbled over when I saw 2 of my friends’ life got so messed up bcos of ‘Love’. I srsly hope that everything will come to an end soon.
It’s a weekday again, I hate it. Why can’t the next public holiday falls on Monday? So that I can spend more time...
What are words, if you really don’t mean when you say them
Your actions last night reminded me of the past, my scary past. Having a communication barrier is a big problem, not being able decipher my simple words is another thing. True colours surfacing, which is the real you? This will always remain as a obstacle for the both of us cos I know you are not gonna solve this with me.
What...
April 2011
10 posts
Not feeling good today, be it physically or mentally.
Ordered a plate of chicky rice& ate only a few mouthful. R asked if I felt lonely when I only meet MC like during weekends only. I told her I don’t feel lonely bcos I’m with J&K almost everyday. But, I knew somewhere in my heart, I felt lonely. Is it that MC don’t need me to keep him accompany? He told me he wanted to...
2/3 of mission accomplished. Every one-third of the mission represents introducing MC to different groups of people.
Jaslyn& Kelly = 1/3
Family = 1/3
Eunicey = 1/3
J& K met MC before, so managed to introduced MC to Eunicey. Good feedback received. Normal strangers won’t understand the joy I had when she ‘passed’ him.
She was so supportive from the start....
I need to cry out loud now, I unable to weep in silence in room anymore. I need aid.
What’s a home to you? I can’t feel warmth at my own ‘home’. When I’m young I got all the attention when I’m sick, right now you say I’m big enough to go see doctor.
Fine, I felt like as if I’m tortured b you mentally. Why you have to keep harping on that matter? Aiming me. I’m not a money tree or what. I earn my own keepings& expenses. I...
I wanna to change to a better person but not under your influence or words. I want it to be that I change it willingly& not under pressure. I know you meant well yet you didn’t realize you hurt me with those casual lines.
I thought I won’t be feeling that way ever since I met you. This weekend, you made me felt so lousy of myself. As I said you meant it well for me, can’t...
I wouldnt probe about it if you were to give me an explanation. Now that you avoided the question, the more I wanna find out. Carry on behaving like this& we will end up with nth in the relationship. I’m irritating, so are you.
Never ever place boyf in the first place of our lives. That will only give us shit at the end of the day. So from tmr onwards, no more dilemma for me.
...
I’m afraid I trusted the wrong person again. I’m not stupid but I srsly can’t bring myself to doubt any of the people trying to know. Still, I know my own limits. Not getting too involve with you guys can save me alot of brain cells. I always liked being alone. Squeezing my own bolster when I’m angry& sleep with my pillow with tears. That’s the way I handle my...
Ive an act-introvert friend, a very close kind. Everytime I’m feeling emotional, I always turned to her. She’s the only one who won’t run me down with harsh words but only facts. Her maturity is something I didnt expect a carefree person to have. Never that kind of ‘friends’ who will be jealous of you when you’re better than them, never willing to share good...
March 2011
20 posts
I wanna vent out all my anger by crying!
Why must I read that when I’m still fuming? Fuck that. Idk how much trust I can put on you. I’m so not gonna put up with that. If that girl have that kind of looks& you still wanna forsake me. Go ahead. Nvr met such shameless kind of person before.
Back to square one. I’m the one who can’t let go of the past, not him. I ought to feel this way for having such stubborn character. What I should do is to accept the past& move on. Stop whinning Yihui.
I didn’t expect you to take our rs so lightly. I shouldn’t have high expectations in our rs, I know. But who doesn’t want the best of all? I know you can do it, just a little bit of understanding will do, really.
2 tags
I love you, ahma
Cremated ahma’s body this morning. Overwhelming of sadness in all of us, every single one. Cried louder& louder as we shouted for ahma.
Idk how to describe my feelings right now. I need to 发泄 not bcos I’m angry, but very sad. I can only cry. The one who used to hide chilli under Beehoon just to disturb me. The one who always wake me up to go exercise with her when I’m...
Ahma left us peacefully on the 21st march 2011. She managed to celebrate this year’s CNY with us, even thou she’s on wheelchair.
On the 20th, her heart rate dropped to 20plus beats/min. Bf drove me to loyang TPK to pray after visiting. Just when I finished burning the incense papers, crows were making noises& I received a call. Rushed back to hospital on time& that’s...