How amusing it is to teach people how to handle things in a nicer way when we’re the ones who don’t use it personally. For the past few weeks, I seriously thought the problem lies with me, but no. It’s OUR ego which caused us to be in this manner. Men got their ego to speak of, so am I. To me, it’s merely a text yet Rachel told me that sms will cause me in deep shit. I’ll be falling for him, the one which had me fooled. I always thought that tolerating each other will solve the problems, but ‘tolerating’ is already another problem. Contradicting much. So, I’ve moved on. Hunting for a husband material guy. I really wished to settle down asap to start my own family. I may be too young to think of all these, but that’s what I wanted. I think I’ve met more than enough of unsuitable guys, god bringing my husband to be, soon.
Im just done with my attachment. A very stressful one. Went through a lot of hurdles just to get over& done with it. Being looked down by someone doesn’t feels good. I felt so demoralized, I felt like I’m not suitable for this career. I seriously want to prove everyone wrong, the more they belittle me, the stronger is my urge to overwrite their stereotyping. I’ve failed to show more concern to my grandma when she’s alive& my future working environment is the only place I can divert all my unused attention to those elderly. I felt so attached to my previous ward for attachment is bcos they reminded me of my grandma. My heart goes to their helplessness in them. I need to find ways to motivate myself to strive for more.
Just texted mom a mushy sms before I got home. I think she will use that sms to disturb me for the next few days. Like who cares.
Goodnight everyone.
The moment I got on button’s car, the couple bombarded me with a lot of interesting short stories. Then WX joined in the fun for plotting a scheme to test KK out. Twitter& KFC. We had 3 different ways to tackle KK before reaching his place but we didn’t follow the scheme. (Bcos I’m busy laughing throughout the whole journey!)
*KK came into the car*
WX: Eh, KK. Where you go just now ah?
KK: At home lor, why?
*I bursted out laughing x1*
WX: What you ate just now?
KK: Rice lor?!
*I laughed even louder x2; banging the window*
Kelly: Dear, later shall we eat KFC?
Me: Yah, we should! Cos I didn’t know there’s rice @ KFC! KK should intro us what!
*Laughters in the car*
WX: KK, so where you go after your rice?
Me: *kanjiong* I know!!!!! He went to create twitterrrrrr!
*laughters in the car x1000*
Oh well, you all may not understand why I find it so funny. Nah, I’m just jotting down in my tumblr as it’ll bring me laughters in the later days. Perhaps, I can just screenshot for the new couple as their memento!
I feel very emo now, I’m blogging on a sunday morning& at this time tmr, I’ll be busy fighting war with my alarm clock to get to hospital for my 6 weeks of attachment. I felt detached after so long. Some of my friends were spot-on. They somehow predicted that I’ll be having a hard time serving my attachment. I srsly dk what else to say since I made it happened. I’m the one who can stop all these from happening but I refused to face the fact. To me, it’s just another failed R/S. I totally failed as a girlfriend. To him, I’m not even his girlfriend to speak of. I never felt so lousy of myself. I told cuzz about it but she did not say much, she just arranged a meal with me. To be honest, I dare not tell anyone, even thou there’s 5 who knew the story. Saying all that out is on stake of my pride. I’m someone who can’t keep mum when I’m sad.
Okay, I shall await for better guys around. Should I really ‘wait’ for him for 3 months until he’s back? I failed him everytime, he said he don’t pin high hopes on me anymore. He’s fucking serious whenever I scolded him, he would send me long sms-es just to make sure I won’t ignore him. K, I very ‘rice-arrow’, I don’t fancy those nice goodie guys. He said something very funny, ‘If I would know you’ll be single couple weeks ago, I wouldn’t take up the overseas business trip.’ Yah right, if he can really predict, I will want him to find me my future husband. He’s really nice, but no feelings. Sorry, A. I love you as a friend, never a lover. 3 months? We shall see.
Brother maligned me today, he assumed that I’m at fault this time round, like always. I cried, then realized I’ve nothing to lose even if he maligned me. I asked him for more money bcos i’m out of love, he said he’ll minus $300 from the fund which he left for me. Haa, I don’t give a shiate, bro will still give me the whole lump sum in the end.
I think I’m typing rubbish. But I love it.
*Boring? I didn’t force you to read! Meet me, then no boredom ♥*
你的愛早已經不痛，我的心缺了一個洞。你的愛我已經不懂，我的愛沒有用。
我很失敗，到底必須經過多少次的彎角才能走到終點站。
I made MC angry, guilt.
Bought him cute lil donuts& mango strudel. He didn’t even bother to eat it when I told him it’s in the fridge. So mean, I hoped to chop off his nose& kill him! K, that’s too extreme but he always said that he wanna kill me.
Then after we had BKT with QY, she mentioned about Mac’s supreme breakfast, I told MC that I wanna try it the next morning. He whispered: ‘cannot, I need to eat the mango strudel you bought!’
Happy die me. I seriously thought he forgot about it. He’s now sleeping like one king beside me when I’m using his phone to blog now. Gotta turn in now so that can go swimming with QY tmr morning.
*had a great time with my snake朋rabbit友, shall upload the pictures once I’m done with my HZGG!*
After 25th august, won’t have the chance to go back school until graduation day. I don’t miss the food in NYP but the people I’ve met throughout these years. Will have to go thru 3postings before we start our 3months of PRCP. I’m now afraid not being able to complete my PRCP bcos I don’t even have the confidence to be a registered nurse.
I’m supposed to study but I just can’t concentrate :(
& I’m listening to 地毒 now. Major love :)
If you think it’s very cute to use private numbers to call& disturb my old number, congrats. Making a fool out of yourself you have no one to turn to, to ask for my current number.
Begging your boyf to stop contacting me like one kind is sucha shame. I don’t reply to his texts, neither do I saved his number. So stop acting like a clown& tell tales to my brother. So you think my brother will scold me bcos of you? He was laughing all the way when he’s on the phone with me.
Basically, I don’t even know your oh-so-cute boyf. I’m not interested in him! Get the facts right& you may choose to continue whining to brother’s friend that I’m seducing your ugly boyf, saying that you’re jealous why Im always happier than you. Get a life whore.
I got speechless when I was told about how you criticized me about my failed rs again& again. But still, bro made my day when he said everyone can’t be bothered with you& left you alone crying yesterday!
Conclusion. Stop bothering me& my brother. Tie your boyf down with a dog latch or even ask him to marry you which I don’t think it’s possible for a person like you born with sucha presentable face. Then set a passcode for entering his car as a front passenger perhaps? So that your bf won’t be able to fetch anyone including me.
Want my current number?
Try harder to unlock your boyf’s phone then, loser bitch.
When you managed to unlock it, you might not be able to search ‘Yihui’.
Try other names perhaps. Eg. Baby, darling, etc while your name remains the same.
In case any of you got the wrong idea, I’m NOT the 3rd party& I’m not interested. I’ve only met the bf like twice& she assumed that I’m the cause of her problematic rs. Poor low self-esteem woman.
"The best kind of kiss, is the kind when you have to stop because you can’t help but smile."
"The best things in life are unseen. That’s why we close our eyes when we cry, laugh, kiss, and dream."
Coming to an end of school life in 2 weeks time then clinical placement for 6 months before I start working.
In life, we have ups& downs to differentiate how good is good, how bad it can be. Had a farewell session with all my classmates yesterday, almost everyone cried upon saying the speech. The 3videos were awesomely done by syharin. It’s all the times we went through among all these years. Babi cried the most, she’s pronounced as the ultimate cry baby. K, perhaps I ranked 2nd. Conflicts& conflicts, all gone within that few hours. Idk if everyone feels the same way like I felt at that moment for not being able to create fabulous memories throughout the year, it’s a shame.
Ms Cynthia was with us as well. Everything went really smoothly if it’s not for the OT/PT maths examination. A great opportunity to share our own feelings but I spoke the least bcos I’m unable to control my tears in a good manner. However, we ended the party with laughters& such. I realized I love every single of my classmates, sincerely. xoxo NR0906
Mom: Girl, where you go yesterday?
Me: Msia lor!
Mom: How you go? Bike or car?
Me: Car la! Why lei!
Mom: I thought I saw you got on a bike?! Are you back tgth with your ex? Girl, cannot lei. You want to suffer again ah? Not mommy wanna say you, but must think. So. are you back tgth with him?
Me: Hell no, mom. Dont disturb me. Bye.
(She’s badly traumatized over my relationship with my previous bf)
Recently, my mom thought I got pregnant. Funny yet irritating max. Nevermind, I know she cares.
I teared, bcos I saw peng jiejie’s graduation photo with ahma. I’ve no chance to wear graduation robe& take pictures with her again. Next, saw my family photo. Triggered my memories with Dad. ‘Dad’ this word sounds so unfamiliar. Uncle Teck mentioned about sending me for overseas studying, Mom rejected. I know what she’s thinking, therefore I did not speak a word. Now I seriously regretted for getting a fortune teller. She’s so spot on which I just hope for time to come to a halt. Year by year, losing one by one. That’s what she told me, but that’s not what I wanted. I’m now praying everyday, for all these not to happen.
I miss you, grandma.
